I was going to do something similar to the list/poem from "10 Things I Hate About You", but right now, I'm too angry.
I HATE YOU.
I hate how EVERY time you bat those stupid cocky eyes in my direction I fall head over heels over you, knowing that we will NEVER be! I hate how you think my entire world revolves around you, and that no one else would save me if I were drowning! I hate dropping everything the moment you give me attention! I'm so sick of waiting and wanting and wishing and nothing ever comes of it, just heartbreak and weeks of tears. I hate how you know all this, but nothing ever changes. I hate how you're all that I can talk about, and how my roommates still think I'm in love with you. I hate how you can tease me all you want and you don't think it does a thing to me because you're "just playing". I used to go to sleep to wake up to you. Now I go to sleep to get away from you.
Guess what. I'm not. I'm tired of having my heart broken. I'm tired of being there for you, and you being there for me. I hate being so close and so far to someone. I deserve someone who doesn't have to edit themselves for me.
I would rather be alone and unloved than waiting for you.
Happy Valentine's Day.
